New Beginnings Aren't So Bad

For real though. Who actually likes starting over. Can anyone actually, honestly say they love beginning a new from scratch.  

"New Beginnings Aren't So Bad" by Rowzina Middleton

I mean it's an interesting process. Having to take the time to be deprogrammed. Breaking mental habits, you probably did not know you even had. Really evaluating your departure from the past and understanding God having a greater plan for you. 

But seriously though. Starting over for me has not been easy. I have been accustomed to certain surroundings for so long, it is difficult not to compare. Yet in comparing I am able to see the negative in my past and the positive in my present. I have the opportunity to be debugged of all toxic emotions from the past as well as the "stinkin' thinkin'" that was associated with it. It's been about finding out who I really am. Who I am in Christ.  As well as going after all things I have ever desired in Christ. I no longer have to worry about anybody blocking me or trying to stop the anointing that they see. My ideas will no longer get knocked down by jealous people. My creativity will no longer be bashed because it's not understood. 

Starting over can have its perks. You may just meet someone new. Of you'll learn something about yourself that you'll actually love. You might stumble upon...

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The Virgin Theory: They Do Exist

by: Rowzina Middleton

I am still a virgin. Yes I know. Shocking isn’t it???    

I am 29 years old and I am a virgin. And I am proud of it. I have not voluntarily given myself away to anyone. My morals and values would not allow me to go all the way with anyone. My first kiss wasn't even until High School, when at least half of the people my age at the time, had kissed someone by like, age 10. I made up in my mind and was convinced in my heart that my virginity was something special. And I was not freely giving it up to just anyone. I knew then, like I still believe now, that one day I will get married. I was always taught that sex was for married people. Once married, it is then biblically legal to “go all the way.” No guy I have come across deserved my time let alone, my essence.

So I chose to wait. I still choose to wait. Or perhaps, it was the conversation my Dad decided to have with me after finding out I had reached puberty. I can laugh now. my Daddy was trying to scare me. Little did He know, the Public schools had already started teaching Sex Education and I knew a lot more than I led on. (But that is another blog for another time.)  

Some people are shocked when I say I am a virgin. Others think something is wrong with me, I don’t like men or I’m just plain crazy. Simply put, I am just a lady who honors her morals and values. I am proud to be a virgin.

My virginity is priceless and will be given away by choice to that special individual that God has assigned to me just for me. Keeping myself is a choice. I do my best to honor God with my whole life, not just bits and pieces. So I will wait to utilize sex in the context that it was created for.

While I wait for my spouse. I will continue to work on bettering myself. I am a Proverbs 31 woman. I am happy with my decision to wait.  

So yes. Adult virgins past the age of 25 do exist. Media nor society influenced my choice. In learning to love myself, I have learned my worth. Being with just anyone is not an option for me. Being a virgin is  great. It is a wonderful thing. Do not get me wrong. It has not been easy. But I manage.  

There are many meanings to the word virgin. I consider myself to be a virgin because I have not voluntarily given myself away to anyone. I have never had sex. I am holding on to this gift until it is time to release it.

What is your definition of a virgin?
Can’t wait to hear from you.  

Rowzina
(Lady Unstoppable)
#proudvirgin  

The original post for this blog can be found kingdommotivation.wordpress.com. Follow Rowzina on instagram @kingdom_motivation and on Twitter @motivator_row.

Transformed and Made New

By: Rowzina Middleton

My mother passed away in October 2006. This was written about a year later, as a reminder of who I am in Christ. It was and still can be a very trying time. But hey, at the end of the day, I am still standing.

I must reintroduce myself.

It’s been 14 months since my mom died. When I lost her, I almost lost it. To this day I still don’t know how I’ve been making it. I don’t know how to make it on my own. So I’m learning, taking it day by day.

This past year has been off the hook crazy. If I had to give ‘07 a theme it would be “those who suffer reign with Christ in order to get stronger.” I can honestly say, sometimes, I just feel weaker. Even more trials have seemed to arise; trying to side track me, mislead and misguide me. Trying to make me lose my focus, lose my faith, lose myself. I’ve been betrayed, stabbed in the back, used, abused, my name has been trampled over, stomped all over, belittled, lied on, I’ve been misunderstood, unaccepted in my own home so to speak. Sounds to me I’ve been treated as those in the Bible days treated Jesus. To suffer with Christ is to reign with Him. Can’t be just like Christ if you can’t suffer with Christ. 

This life is a continuous spiritual fight and we fight with spiritual weapons. Our lives have purpose. And there is a process- those things that we go through that help us and prepares us to show up for the promise, a prepared table in the presence of our enemies. This part of my life is my “Turning Point.”

Always keep Running On... - Rowzina Middleton

 I’m in a “Prophetic Transition.” “As my praise increases, my blessings shall increase as well.” “He is the God of the breakthrough.” And I know all things work together for the good of them who love God and are the called according to His purpose. Nothing I’ve done has been done in vain. I can’t help save everyone. Have to drop the dead weight. Focus on myself as I focus on God and His promises for me. I have the victory. There are angels encamped around me, fighting for me. Jesus continues interceding for me. You know on those days that I don’t know what to pray for and all I can manage to say is Jesus or moan or just close my eyes and shake my head. My Jesus prays on my behalf. 


So yes I’m going thru hell right now. The devil is attacking, while God is testing. At the same time my Daddy is blessing- molding me and making me- loving me - Metamorphically changing me from the inside out. I surely do not look like what I’ve been through. My smile displays my joy and my peace. Learning yet and still to totally depend on Jesus. It was He who saved me. He who keeps and loves me. The me, who keeps messing up and getting distracted, He dies on that cross for me, “an overly animated bag of mere dust.”

As I’m nailed to this cross and the Lord continues to break me and make me more uncomfortable, I prepare for my Resurrection- new beginning. I am in Christ. I am a new creature. Old things have passes away as I’m being made new. Who you see now you won’t see this time next year.

Hey 
How are ya?
My name is Rowzina -- "UNSTOPPABLE".
I’ve stopped looking back and I am pressing toward the mark of the prize of the high calling which is in Christ Jesus. It’s been a pleasure meeting you.

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Rowzina is an Author, Entrepreneur and contributor to BOLDJournal. Stay updated with the latest posts from Breath Of Life Daily on Twitter and Instagram: @BOLDJournal. Rowzina's Book: This Right Here Is A Faith Walk Can Be Purchased on Amazon.